more than three month passed...
a LOT has happened...
1. i drove back to germany over christmas to visit my little boy who came back from chile after 1.5 years. i also saw his mum again. some might remember that i spent 17 years of my life with P before we split up almost three years ago. despite the attraction that always remained between us this time for the first time i felt that i don't want her back...
but talking about my son. i was a little bit in doubt wether we would have a great time as he didn't see me for a quarter of his life. he is 6 years old now...
well. there was nothing to worry about. as soon as i rang the doorbell you could hear him running towards the door and after opening the door he jumped at me to hug me and not let loose for the following ten days...
it was great.
2. i spent new year with my hopeless love T. we even spent the night together sleeping in the same bed. we were even kissing each other during the day, but this relationship seems to be one that never will be a proper one. however we both enjoyed every second of it and had a great few days.
the new years party we spent again with all my old mates from university but to be honest we left quite early. it becomes clearer every year that they progressed in their lives in a way that is so far away from me that we hardly have anything in common.
for the very first time i received more text messages wishing me a happy new year from england than from germany. and believe it or not. the one who is always complaining about not having his german mates around suddenly started to miss his english friends...
3. back in england i finally got the payrise i always expected and my role in the office is better defined now in a way that i and the rest of the team knows my responsibilities.
that came especially important as we hired a second qualified architect who has his qualities in other fields so that we shouldn't come across each other in a bad way.
4. i moved house for the seventh time since i am in england and hopefully found something longerlasting.
i was fed up with living on my own so i got back into a shared house which i share with an artist. he's a very lively blokewhich in turn helps me as well to be a little more outgoing.
5. valentine's day...
i am still single but i received a valentine's card with the following text:
Falk
a valentine to tell you
my heart
belongs to you,
and also, i would
like to add,
my love is all yours, too!
happy valentine's
?x
haven't got a clue who it is from but i love the gesture it is good to know people think about you
6. there is a significant change in my life since last week.
i woke up one morning and felt that i didn't need to smoke anymore.
there sometimes is the urge of getting some fags from the shop especially in these situations where i was used to light one up...
but until now i didn't go to buy fags. in fact i am still going out of the office when i had my fag breaks and just breathe some fresh air while my colleague still smokes his cigarette.
i made an appointment with the gym tomorrow to get me a bit more on the right lane after heavy smoking for more than 20 years.
it was worrying me a little bit that i couldn't walk uphill anymore and talk at the same time...
that definitely has to change...
you see... quite a lot happened.
but i am still the architect.
and love sick
and, of course, mini driving...
speak to you soon again... 