confessions of the mini driving architect...

well...

once again i have been away for a while...

and again a lot has happened.
the main change is the change of the title of my blog.

for those who read it from time to time you might have realised that the word "lovesick" is abandoned.

guess why...

yes finally there is no reason anymore for me to be lovesick any longer.
not that i do not reflect about my emotions anymore or suffer from time to time... but the general mood is more than positive...

i hope this time i have a few more chances to write. my life is still very demanding and a few changes took place...

1. i got a new job
2. i am not single anymore
3. i am going to move to a new place soon as my current housemate is a psycho
4. i still have my two minis but both need some essential work done
5. my parents came to england this summer for the first time and they brought my son with them
6. recent developments in what i used to call "my home"... germany
7. last but not least my personal development

all of these topics i will try to deal with on here and share my thoughts.

so if you are interested in one or the other of the above points (sure noone will cover match them all) come back from time to time and leave a comment...

hope to see you soon...

more than three month passed...

a LOT has happened...

1. i drove back to germany over christmas to visit my little boy who came back from chile after 1.5 years. i also saw his mum again. some might remember that i spent 17 years of my life with P before we split up almost three years ago. despite the attraction that always remained between us this time for the first time i felt that i don't want her back...
but talking about my son. i was a little bit in doubt wether we would have a great time as he didn't see me for a quarter of his life. he is 6 years old now...

well. there was nothing to worry about. as soon as i rang the doorbell you could hear him running towards the door and after opening the door he jumped at me to hug me and not let loose for the following ten days...
it was great.

2. i spent new year with my hopeless love T. we even spent the night together sleeping in the same bed. we were even kissing each other during the day, but this relationship seems to be one that never will be a proper one. however we both enjoyed every second of it and had a great few days.

the new years party we spent again with all my old mates from university but to be honest we left quite early. it becomes clearer every year that they progressed in their lives in a way that is so far away from me that we hardly have anything in common.

for the very first time i received more text messages wishing me a happy new year from england than from germany. and believe it or not. the one who is always complaining about not having his german mates around suddenly started to miss his english friends...

3. back in england i finally got the payrise i always expected and my role in the office is better defined now in a way that i and the rest of the team knows my responsibilities.
that came especially important as we hired a second qualified architect who has his qualities in other fields so that we shouldn't come across each other in a bad way.

4. i moved house for the seventh time since i am in england and hopefully found something longerlasting.
i was fed up with living on my own so i got back into a shared house which i share with an artist. he's a very lively blokewhich in turn helps me as well to be a little more outgoing.

5. valentine's day...
i am still single but i received a valentine's card with the following text:
Falk
a valentine to tell you
my heart
belongs to you,
and also, i would
like to add,
my love is all yours, too!

happy valentine's
?x

haven't got a clue who it is from but i love the gesture it is good to know people think about you

6. there is a significant change in my life since last week.
i woke up one morning and felt that i didn't need to smoke anymore.
there sometimes is the urge of getting some fags from the shop especially in these situations where i was used to light one up...
but until now i didn't go to buy fags. in fact i am still going out of the office when i had my fag breaks and just breathe some fresh air while my colleague still smokes his cigarette.

i made an appointment with the gym tomorrow to get me a bit more on the right lane after heavy smoking for more than 20 years.
it was worrying me a little bit that i couldn't walk uphill anymore and talk at the same time...

that definitely has to change...

you see... quite a lot happened.
but i am still the architect.
and love sick
and, of course, mini driving...

speak to you soon again...

friday...

YEAHH!!! it's friday...

what a day at work. after yesterday's marathon meeting in leicestershire i had to work up everything that my resource (yes! finally i got an technologist to work for me...) was taking in notes on the meeting...
managed to do all the necessary phone calls and am really looking forward to see the project progressing...
construction starts mid february and it will be finalised by july...
my first building on this island...

well... being in the office i saw our new stunner S. again... she was wearing a skirt today and was in the usual good mood (and of course looked gorgeous again)...
waited to take my lunch until she took hers. unfortunately she is not talking that much. well... not to me (maybe her parents told her not to talk to strange men...). she can giggle quite a lot if she is with the other giggling girls in the office...

one of my colleagues plays in a band and he has a gig next friday. as there are some people of the office going i just asked her to join in as nobody else yet did. she said she will come, but i start believing that when she is actually there on friday...

oh yes. things turn out quite well at the moment as J. (one of the interior designers) invited me to join her going to a crafts market exhibition thingie in north yorkshire on sunday.
we were talking over the last few weeks and were both complaining about not taking any cultural opportunities because of the lack of partners. she left her boyfriend a few weeks ago as he was more interested in watching telly and drinking beer all the time (which is okay occasionally but not as a natural habit)...

so yeah... we're heading towards a new year and i already seem to get a glimpse on what potential that year might have...

take care...

one of our admin girls is going on holiday next week...

so the company obviously decided to get a replacement from an agency for these two weeks...
our admin girl is also in charge of the coffee machine (one of these posh ones that do latte and cappuccino and all that stuff). as i am probably having as much coffee as the whole rest of the staff together i usually have some nice chats with our admin girl. she is one of thos that i would marry immediately...
if she was 20 years younger and wasn't already married...

yesterday S. came into the office to receive her training.
WOW...

S. is extremely fit... nearly as tall as i am with blonde hair and bright eyes... and a smile that melts stones...
i immediately was in a better mood when she entered the office. the company should bring new replacement girls in more frequently...

no chance though that she stays for longer as she just finished university and wants to work as a health researcher (which might make her end up at one of the london unis). currently she lives with her sister at her parents house in wetherby as i found out on the first day...

today unfortunately i was at a meeting in leicestershire the whole day...
short deviation: my uk coal project (at which's meeting i was today) is running pretty well and two days ago "boss" said in front of all our staff that uk coal is currently the only project in the office that is managed in a way that he would like to see all projects managed... that felt quite good hearing that...
most of our projects are delayed because we have too many of them...
to keep the team spirit up i answered "boss" that it's only because uk coal is a very patient client... don't want to make the team feel bad (but a little bit of pride i feel).

however. because of the meeting i didn't see a lot of S. today as i had to leave when she came into the office. but she gave me a smile (one of the stone-melting ones) when she saw me...

so i have only 11 days left to leave a good impression...
i don't really know how to do that but i need to find a way...

keep you updated...